Trevor Yokoyama & Darby Charest
He/Him, She/Her
Seattle Buddhist Temple
“Transcript of an interview between Trevor Yokoyama and Darby.
Trevor: Hello Everyone, my name is Trevor Yokoyama, and with me is my Girlfriend Darby. We have been dating for 1 year, long-distance, starting on January 5th, 2020. Darby goes to the University of Arizona studying Special Education Rehabilitation Psychology with a minor in Family Studies and Human Development. Typically, Darby lives in Tucson Arizona for 9 months out of the year to attend school. I live in Seattle-Washington so our relationship is long distance. Honestly, we see each other about the same even if there wasn’t a current active pandemic. Anyways, say hi Darby.
Darby: Hi.
Trevor: Ok, so this interview is mainly to gauge any achievements, thoughts, or insights during the year 2020. Additionally, we want to do this to celebrate 1 year of YBE. YAY. Ok, first question, “What have you achieved this year?”
Darby: Well, at the start of the year, I felt very confident in the goals I set for myself. Within the three months before the world came to a halt, I was cultivating deeper relationships with my college friends, excelling academically, teaching an undergraduate class while working a part-time tutoring job, and still finding the time to exercise and decompress. In a way, I look back and see that version of myself as confident, engaged, and filled with vigor. I was enamored with my life. I enjoyed my school days and nights getting to call you and catch-up. There were other plans that I had for 2020 such as traveling to Norway and adopting a cat, but those dreams were cut short when our school and the world announced that we had to go home and shelter-in-place. At this time, I had just come off a high from a spring-break trip to Puerto Penasco, Mexico. I was excited to get back to the classrooms and finish the semester strongly; at that time I had increasing ambitions for my school life such as starting up a new honorary. Yet, when our school President made the announcement it felt that everything I had achieved in those three months of the new year meant nothing. Rather, I was filled with grief. My ambitions were put on hold - I felt like I was put on hold. I even remember the heaviness of my grief as I landed back in SEATAC, lacking the energy to smile at my mom when she picked me up. I even felt remorse for lacking excitement to be back with family, to be back to see you. It took a month or so to adjust with being back in Washington, being back at home and sharing space with two working parents on the same WiFi, and back in my childhood room. Everything was frustrating and overwhelming. One insomnia-filled night, the posters and notes that cluttered my bedroom walls were overwhelming me, so I simply got up and started removing the anxiety-inducers from my wall. You see, I’m a sentimental person. I hold value and attach memories to seemingly useless things - and these things existed on my walls for years. With each thing I removed from the wall I felt a sense of release; I was letting go of all the things I yearned for or missed. Letting go is something that I have limited experience in practicing.
Trevor: Ah that was deep, I can definitely empathize with you in regards to the last year not going how I had originally envisioned. How can you view it from a Buddhist perspective?
Darby: Through my limited knowledge of Buddhism, I would say that I believe learning to let go has been my greatest achievement this year. I let go of the goals I had originally set for the year. I let go of ambitions of the past. Instead, I focused on my present and what I could do for myself and others day by day. I let go of the expectations of my 20th birthday, summer holidays, winter holidays, the fall semester. Letting go has allowed me to move forward and tackle a full-semester online and a relationship miles apart. I let go of the image of my ‘best’ self and focused on my true and present self.
Trevor: Thanks for letting me interview you. Happy 1 year anniversary for YBE, and also happy 1 year anniversary for us.